I used to think that death was the hardest thing to overcome. It's not. It's hard comparable really. Death is final. You watch the casket be lowered into the ground and you mourn, but you eventually get over it. It can take years and it hurts like hell, but it's final. that person is gone and there is no fear of a repeat. With attempted suicide there is no finality. Nothing hurts more than someone you love trying to end their own life. Nothing compares.