Everyone is asking me how I feel, how I am and truthly I feel numb. I cant feel anything and honestly I like it.
Be patient and tough; some day this pain will be useful to you.
They didn't know that she was planning something. Most people thought she was perfectly fine. She was good at pretending...but some people knew she wasn't okay but they didnt realize how bad it was. She would party every weekend. She was border line alcoholic rarely going 48 hours without being 100% sober. She tried finding comfort in anything even if that ment ****ing some guy she just met one night while she had been drinking. Everyday was going by as a blur. They didn't know that she cried herself to sleep every night. They didnt know that she had practiced cutting herself so many times. They didnt know that she had written and rewritten letters to all the people she cared about most telling them she loved them and apologizing. She even wrote one to the person who was most important to her, who wouldn't understand what had happened because she was to young. She wanted her to know it wasn't her fault and she loved her dearly. They just didnt know. They found her surrounded... in her own blood. They finally new... they finally realized that she really wasn't okay and the rumors, and the fake friends, and the guys who liked her for all the wrong reasons, and the family, and the lies, and the unperfect body that she saw that everyone else thought was close to perfect, had gotten to her. She finally had the courage to press down hard enough... and they finally knew that she planned this.
It is a truth universally acknowledged that the moment one area of your life starts going okay, another part of it falls spectacularly to pieces.
It wasn't because I wanted to die, I just wanted the pain to finally stop.
A pill to make you numb, a pill to you make you dumb, a pill to make you anybody else, but all the drugs in this world won't save her from herself.
I'm tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying.
I know what its like to want to die; how it hurts to smile; how you try to fit in but you can't; how you hurt yourself on the outside; to try to kill the thing that's in the inside.
Our scars have the power to remind us that the past is real.
There's a smile on my face but I don't know why it's there... I put it on to satisfy all the people that don't even care.
I'm just learning how to smile, and that's not easy to do.
Life and death are balanced on the edge of a razor.